Birds fall from the sky due to "blunt force trauma" in Arkansas, Louisiana and now Sweden. Fish die in Arkansas while the Victoria River in Canada runs bright green. The New Madrid fault in the Midwest seems to be awakening (thanks, Debra, for the information). Bats die off in Tucson. And honeybees have been dying off for some years. All the experts have a theory. All the theories have to do with some incredible explanation as to why this is happening. Last I read, there's now speculation that some phosgene gas was introduced into the atmosphere. And that would explain all these creatures dying? Maybe in Arkansas but why does it seem to be species-specific (except LA, where it was several types of birds)?
I really do not buy into conspiracy theories or end of the world garbage. I tend to use logic to work out what may have happened in any particular situation, even if logic doesn't seem to be appropriate for any kind of explanation. But all of this happening is just "strange" - and it may be, in my unique mindset of paranoia and talking to spirits, that there could perhaps be something happening well beyond what our modern and educated society might want to truly comprehend. What's all this mean? Hell if I know, but here's what I am seeing from way up here at a high altitude on the side of a mountain:
The critters here have spent the last four months wandering all over these hills and I am grateful to see them about once a day. For the past two weeks, they have not gone more than 20 feet from me. Mule deer, whitetail deer, bighorn sheep, rabbits. They are all camped right here. Since I moved here I have enjoyed a quiet evening conversation with God and with some Lakota spirit guides who seem to like my company. Lately? None of them are saying much. I suddenly hear from people who I knew back in society. All of them want to escape to this place. All of them? How odd....
I suppose that we will all find out what's happening on this planet soon enough. And, while I do not want to sound like I perhaps did something for others by moving way up here (I did not, I moved to keep myself sane), I am quite flattered that others would like to follow this path. Whether I am in a better place to survive whatever comes, I do not know. But I do know, without a doubt, that peace and God both live here.
You all take care of yourselves back in the flatlands.
I awoke this morning in a new year and in my new life. Finally, 2010 has ended. I hope to revisit it as little as possible. Meanwhile, I have no idea what will happen in 2011 and really do not worry about it very much. Whatever may occur, I'll survive it through faith and through the help of the great friends I have. I suppose if there were any new year's resolution, it would be happiness and I am close to that already. Basic needs have taken the place of wants, though it helps up here if one's wants are as simple as beautiful scenery and crisp mountain air. God seems to supply those in abundance in these Black Hills.
New Year's Day has always been one (for me) to kind of look back over all the other first days of January and see what's changed, if anything. For a long time, I've wondered whether life has any defining moments, any particular points - not necessarily standing out at the time - where a single decision would have changed the course of an individual future. Again and again, I return to a January 1st of some 20 years ago, when there was a tiny house and a Ford pickup and a few possessions, back before the charge, both literally and figuratively, toward outward affluence and the false self-image brought by corporate culture.
Recalling that day, it seemed a simple life. This morning I realize I have that again, a tiny place out in the country and a truck and not much else. Twenty years ago, there was no need for me to take any abuse from others. I enjoyed life. Coincidentally, that is exactly where I reside right now. Does God let anyone start over from a past moment with the hopefully gained wisdom of all the experiences from then to now? Perhaps.
If you had the opportunity, would you do that?
Happy New Year to all my friends. May 2011 bring you peace, happiness and the joy of having true friends.
I'm not going to do any editing with this one, so I apologize for any grammatical or logic errors. One year ago today, my last marriage ended. I've learned it wasn't her fault or my fault. Rather it seems more like years of personal struggles finally took their toll. Perhaps had we followed the advice in the song from Waylon Jennings and Willie Nelson years ago to just go to Luckenbach, Texas (or wherever) and gotten back to basics, we'd not have ended the way we did. In my constant quest for owning more "stuff," having greater status, living in bigger houses, there'd have been time to enjoy life rather than become a slave to it. Slavery brings greater stress, sometimes enough to destroy someone. In any case, it happened. The past is gone, forever relegated to distant glimpses of recall and a sense of regret whenever the old appears in the present. I remember that years ago, I had prayed for wisdom. If nothing else, this past year has taught me a few things.
One of those lessons dealt with self-definition. It's not occupation or possessions. If it is either or both, then one is forced to toil more and more to ultimately pay for less and less. An occupation where the goal is money often means those who are your masters have the same goal and will sacrifice you or anyone else so that they continue to be "on top." Yet, if you really consider it from some sense of morals, you'd not even associate with people like that at all. Instead, though, you act like they are your friends so you can hopefully remain employed, while you choke on your distaste for what they do to both you and others. The constantly stated excuse that "it's only business" is no excuse, it's a false justification for actions that hurt others. Meanwhile, the truly important parts of life are tossed aside, forgotten until it becomes too late to regain them. My ex-wife always worked for herself, she said she couldn't tolerate working for someone else. I definitely should have followed that lead.
Another lesson learned has to do with doctors. Be very careful in your blind trust of doctors. Yes, I am sure some really want to help people. Others want to gain money. For example, there are many other ways of conquering depression besides taking some prescribed medications that will end up not only taking away your soul but will literally move you into some kind of alternate reality where you are not you at all. If you end up realizing this has happened, it's a horrific nightmare once you stop taking their pills and attempt to figure out who you really are. I see that psychiatric medications are now prescribed more than any other type of pharmaceutical. Either many, many people are somehow mentally ill, or maybe there are external causes (dealing with modern society?) and it's those causes that should be eliminated, not masked by drugs.
Planning for the future is fine as long as there's a clear understanding that everything you ever planned for and all that you have can be gone in moments. So, rather than remaining fixated on some future grand goal at the expense of all else, put the present first and try to really enjoy all the small gifts that life offers - and you have ignored. Where I used to live, a fire in a wood stove and having something to eat should have been reason enough to be happy. Unfortunately, it was not so in my mind. At least right now, I can watch an eagle flying around in the valley below and really stop and appreciate it.
Value the friendship of others, it is often more fleeting than you know. If you have a choice between helping yourself and helping someone else, you'll gain more by helping another. Many people cannot be loyal to you, they are loyal to money or protecting themselves, so if you find a person who is truly loyal to you regardless of who you become or what you no longer have, hold on to that person. Someone like that is very rare. If you find there is no one else, there's always your God or your Great Spirit. Learn to live with that inner guidance. It may be all you have, and if you understand that is all you need, then anything else that comes from this life is a greater blessing.
I sometimes wonder whether it was a good idea to pray for wisdom and if I will ever be a wise person. The Lakota call life's good path the "red road." I hope I am on that road. Though it is often very difficult, it is much more rewarding than either owning more things or being enslaved by others in the struggle for more money. I do know now that a line from the movie Tombstone is actually true. "There's no normal life... there's just life."
I notice that Freedom Group (the owner of multiple firearms brands) is closing Bushmaster and Thompson Center, citing profitability and economic concerns. Perhaps, though I have wondered ever since Freedom Group started buying companies whether they were "good guys" or not. Seems like one way to get gun control in place without having to go through legal channels would be to just buy up firearms manufacturers and then close them. No doubt I'm wrong. People with money never force their will, their personal goals on others through the use of that money, right?
Regardless of the motive, it's more people out of work and more manufacturing lost, but if I were an investor, why would I care if I could end up with more profit? Theoretically, that would let me buy more companies, get more profit, sell off assets - not hurting me a bit, I'd have the money. Strange thing is that while getting richer, becoming a "visionary thinker" and getting accolades for my business, all those regular, ordinary people who could once afford to buy the stuff I sell, they went away. They couldn't get jobs, couldn't pay for their homes, had to sell off all their stuff just to survive. As I live in the world of the rich, I don't know those people and have no reason to know them. I'm smarter than they are as all my money is proof of that.
Something is just incredibly wrong with those who think they lead but actually destroy others, for whatever motive, whether it be restricting the ability of the ordinary to fight back due to a lack of arms or lack of employment or lack of life. I'm afraid that is exactly what's happened in these United States. There was an article in some newspaper discussing how the ordinary and unseen are starting to fight back by just walking away from banks, debt, virtually everything. The minimalist movement might be a part of that as people learn that owning stuff doesn't make them happy. I personally know some of these people, many live right where I live now. You know, they don't have any "things" but sure do seem happy.
As usual, I wandered off from firearms makers and ended up at a larger idea, that of the pursuit of happiness. If happiness is just living life, I wonder what will happen to those rich visionaries when all they have is their money and it will no longer buy them anything since the unseen no longer care. And, I may well live long enough to see it happen. At least I can always make my own guns and ammunition. I can choose to just be nice and help others even when it's not monetarily profitable for me to do so. I'd rather be around the unseen but real people in these United States. That gains me friends who will help me (and have beyond anything I could have imagined). And if the guns go away due to whatever reason the corporations cite, then I'll be busy making guns for all my friends. I get to be employed by my friends, not some "master," and I don't follow any code of conduct, I'm just me. An old, tattooed biker who has friends. A good trade.
Before you decide you are the Gray Man, blending into your surroundings with the stealth of a pecker in a whorehouse, might want to glance around first. Most everybody would agree that it's advantageous to blend into wherever you happen to be, but it amazes me how many "operators" think they create their surroundings regardless of where they happen to be standing. For those who just looked like they fell off planet Dimwit, figure out where you are. Philadelphia PA and Buckhorn WY are not exactly next door to each other.
Check out what regular, local people wear. Multicam and an Infidel T-shirt might not be exactly gray man attire. People do notice things that are out of place and in this century, don't ever think that there won't be somebody around who will know exactly what Rhodesian camo looks like. And they will be asking, too. Maybe not you, but they will damn sure ask local law enforcement - and the local Sheriff may have just been in South Africa and wondering the same thing, which is just who do you think you are? Better have a great backstory for those kinds of questions. Unless you really like attention, you might be much better off wearing Wrangler jeans and a work shirt.
Most of the readers who stop by this blog are used to being around guns and other weapons. Not so with the average person, but if they do know guns, they'll respect competency, not expense. If you go hunting someplace, the guides will not be impressed with your engraved Weatherby unless you can shoot it like a rock star. Do your firearms fit your location? If the locals use Winchester 30-30s, your FN-FAL or M4 is going to get noticed. If I am in Kansas City, a sport jacket and any high capacity semi-automatic for concealed carry, I look like everyone and no one. Where I live now, I have not seen a sport jacket here ever.
There's a time and place for anything. If you want to disappear, it's something to consider.
Loyalty. I wonder if this one word means a thing anymore. I ponder on this often, I consider all the possibilities of what it might mean but I can find no answers. Loyal. I was taught that means the old west notion to "ride for the brand," to absolutely serve one's employer to the best of one's ability. Seems, though, that our modern society does not value that. Somewhere, loyalty got tangled up in a fence with the ass that kisses itself. And those who you were loyal to, they'd rather have ass kissers.
How in the world did this happen? Do they think that because they somehow make more money that they are really more important? It's all very strange. And when I did speak up, after losing everything I owned, to say that the cocksuckers are not worthy to be employed, it was I that lost. Guess years of loyalty didn't mean a thing and I really should have just shut up and done nothing. Honestly, is your life worth losing for anyone who does not value you? Or, perhaps you are just a slave to your employer so you can keep your "stuff." The stuff doesn't mean shit. And neither does your employer. Where I used to work, we were "associates." Ok, we're part of the whole. Then, we were termed "employees" so that the terminology would match the criteria for the "best run company" — right. Perfect.
The company didn't follow a damn thing about keeping its employees. In fact, the company instituted so many policies that there was a written procedure for how to put apples in a bowl.... so, when my friend brought in some oranges to give away for free, the company berated her because there were no oranges listed in the procedure document. These people are not part of the best run of anything, they are part of the problem here in the USA with those who think they should buy loyalty rather than earn it. Thank you, God, that I am away from that company and no longer have to kiss my ex-VP's ass just so I could have a real job. I do feel sorry that the company's owners would rather have children in power than real, loyal people. But, WTF, it's not my place to say. A telling comment might be that the son of the owner moved to China to get away from it all.... but, hell, what do I know? I'm unemployable since I am so dangerous. It will all make a good book someday.
Me? I have nothing, so they can all just sue me and stay the fuck out of South Dakota. Loyalty doesn't mean shit in "corporate USA." Well, it does to me but seems like I am the only one left.
Most of what I read about survival has to do with being lost in the wilderness or escaping to the wilderness, where one would kill animals and build shelters. It seems more likely that most people would need skills that would better serve some type of economic survival rather than wilderness living. It can take very little anymore to put one in a position of having no income. If you think you might face that risk, the skills you relied on to be employed out in the world may not mean much. The economy of unemployment and especially if deciding to be on the move for a while will mean you need to be able to fend for yourself while offering the ability to do things that others cannot or would rather pay for than do themselves. You'll not get far at a truck stop in the flatlands by expousing your expertise as a marketing expert. If instead you can work on diesel engines or can wash dishes, then you may get to eat that day. Consider the basic skills that most of our grandparents had that are now considered almost lost arts. As society became more specialized, the types of employment changed, of course, and people spent so much effort getting more educated to reach higher status that basics were no longer needed. If you have the time, you might want to search out some knowledge that's useful in the real world rather than the corporate one. You might wish you had if your life suddenly takes a drastic turn in an unexpected direction.
Some examples of these would be whether you can change a tire on a vehicle (plenty of people cannot), start a fire - if you don't carry a lighter, better have some way of doing it, change an electric outlet, do basic plumbing repairs, use an axe efficiently, cook over a campfire and for that matter, cook without any appliances. Do you know how to drive a tractor, run a backhoe, dig a trench with a shovel, drive a big truck with a manual transmission? It takes only a few tools and supplies in a bag or pouch to be useful rather than useless. Know basic first aid, there may not be the luxury or funds to call 911 or drive to a hospital. On a similar note, I have a firearm and know how to use it. It should be basic, with readily available ammunition, and it should blend in. The ability to blend in is an extremely important point.
Wherever you find yourself, look like the people who live there as much as possible. Being unemployed and broke is not the time to draw attention to yourself. People universally distrust "different" and you'll not be in a great position to answer multiple questions from anyone in law enforcement if asked. Consider what you really think of some homeless person you see and then consider how others will think of you if you're the one without a physical address. Blend in and be nice - others who have very little will be the people who will help you with places to stay and finding underground economy jobs once they learn what you know how to do. What you were in the past is not going to help, it's what you can do for yourself and others that will make the difference. It's not hard to learn, just seek out people with real-world basic skills and ask them to show you. Next time you get your oil changed or some wiring fixed at your home, watch what that person is doing. It may be you think that you'll never need to know how to do what that repair person is doing as your life and your job are so completely secure. If so, I hope for your sake that you are right. But, it takes so little effort to learn while you still have that opportunity and before you end up where you can only be sorry that no one needs an accountant or your Master's degree at a campsite.
Was there a time when employers really cared about employees? I'm running through history books in my head but can't recall anything specific. Personally, I think there are employers who care about profit - a good thing, since having the company solvent means those who work for the company get to have jobs, and then there are many more employers who care about profit plus. Plus means the ability to be superior to the employees. The owners are rich, management gets paid staggeringly more money than those who are managed and everybody above use their powers to inflict duress on those who actually do the work. That's not something to increase profit, it's just something to show that those who are higher are somehow better than those who are lower on whatever ranking system the company arbitrarily uses to chart or graph or measure that the people in high places get to be in high places because they are in high places. I am not making this up. Some companies will even use their power to tell employees what they can and can't do on their own time - not like they can't commit felony murder but telling the employees who they can and can't talk with on their own time.
After many years of working in both low places and high places, I've picked out a few differences that I find interesting, though I have not yet come to any real conclusions except some thoughts on the dismal state of human nature in general. Those in low places all seem to get along with each other, while some authority figure way above their pay grade is just a jerk but nobody has to really deal with him or her. Those in high places step on anyone in low places, while trying to stab the others in high places in the back so that the stabber will come out ahead and remain in some exalted position. What an incredible difference in the conscience of people or the lack thereof. It's like when you have some issue with a fellow member in a motorcycle club. You just spit it out and work it out as equals. In the corporate world, it's the smarmy false one who kisses an ass greater than yours who wins. Don't dare say what you really think, as those in power don't want you to think. And not only will they use every means at their disposal to shut you up, they'll make sure that everybody else there is suitably frightened of their almighty power that they will shut up, too.
How did this happen? Seems to me that a company would be better off by treating their employees as equals, asking for and encouraging independent thought, looking for new directions from the people who actually do the real work, listening. I know this doesn't happen and I know that employers succeed through the usual practices of remaining superior while treating the people who actually work as inferiors. I'd love to see some of the highly-educated and self-aggrandizing clowns try to survive out in the true world, not their own self-created world where they trample on others to fulfill their need for egocentric awards and acclaim from other asshats. But, I know that won't ever happen. Oh, and since I am "unemployable," I can say whatever I want about employers. Like Janis sang, "Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose." I have nothing left to lose so I am free and get to have a voice. And mine is that if ever anybody starts a company and treats everyone there as equals, that company will not fail.
And, by the way, (ex-) boss, how in the hell do you live with yourself? Quite well, I suppose. Some advice: be sure you hire sheep. You obviously can't deal with wolves.
Firing ranges are where most people learn the fundamentals of handling and using guns safely, and at any range I have visited, firearm safety is stressed very strongly. But, once the basics of learning how to shoot and how to not blow holes in things that aren't designated targets are learned, it's equally important to do some shooting in a different kind of environment where other skills can be learned. If not, ingrained range rules may take over during a situation where the ability to destroy an adversary is a hell of a lot more important than making sure your gun's muzzle doesn't point in some arbitrary unsafe direction.
A mindset that shooting in a direction other than where a target stand is located can mean fatal hesitation if you find you need to shoot in multiple directions, especially while moving (and if you're not moving, you're likely already hit). With the availability of Airsoft guns, these skills can be developed almost anywhere, though it is still important if a suitable location can be found to use live fire at least once in a while. I read an article about malfunctions on a range where the shooter would not keep the muzzle pointed down range when attempting to get the gun running. In the real world, there's no "down range," there's just you. Practice getting back into the fight without concern for range rules, only your own rule to win the fight.
This reminds me of people who try to chamber a round in a semi-automatic pistol by pointing the gun at the target, then grabbing the rear of the slide and pulling the slide toward them. The problem is that some people do not have the hand strength to do that. It's a safe technique, but these people then think they can't operate a pistol as it's just too hard to get the slide back. If they'd (based on a right-handed shooter) point the pistol across their chest to the left, then take their left hand on top of the slide and push with each arm - right hand pushes left, left hand pushes right - there is a lot more mechanical advantage and the slide can be easily operated. Yes, the shooter is pointing the gun at whoever is to their immediate left. So what? If the shooter knows to keep his or her finger off the trigger, the gun is not going to go bang by itself. The safe part of gun handling is the shooter's brain and the shooter's finger. Learn range rules for the range, learn to win the fight in the world.